structure

Ph. from several Tumblr blogs

Structure. Something that has been on my mind lately in all its forms. When I think about structure in my day-to-day life, I believe there is a serious lack of it. I would probably say I'm one of the most unorganized people you will ever meet. I always start out right with making all these beautiful lists (that I have to do all over again once I make a spelling mistake, because it has to look good for no particular reason), but when it comes to the point that it would actually be a smart move to utilize these lists they're nowhere to be found. Some goes for my keys, phone, jewelry, wallet and other very important stuff that I 'always keep in the same place' but somehow seem to disappear every single day (I can see my mum, dad and boyfriend nodding in agreement behind their screens now). However, when it comes to planning out my future and knowing what I want to do and how I want to do it, I'm pretty structured. I have always loved writing and fashion, somehow I always knew I would end up combining these two. When I was a year away from graduating from high school, I already picked out what I was going to study and which courses I wanted to take. So far, I stuck to this plan and everything is working out as I planned it. 

I have just started a half year course (also according to my original plan) at the Amsterdam Fashion Institute and I must say that even though I just started, I can already say that it has got me thinking. Being surrounded by new people who all have the same passion but with such different perspectives is really refreshing. It really makes me rethink my view on fashion, but also how I look at myself and the world. In a way I feel like this course will partly be about finding out who I truly am when it comes to these aspects. Besides that, I'm also really curious and eager to learn all about magazine making. It's all very exciting, but in the very back of my mind I'm also a tiny little bit scared. Who knows what you'll find when you (partly) rebuild your structure...