home is where the heart is

Pictures by me and Nick Zijlstra on previous trips to Paris

I know it's no secret that Paris is my favorite city and that I'd love to go there very soon, but lately I have been feeling extremely drawn to this place. I guess you could even say that I'm a little homesick. Odd, because I was born and raised in Amsterdam, so technically that's 'home'. And in some ways it's true. Most of my friends and family live here, I found the love of my life here, I have a house - thus a home - here, I know the city inside out, I went to school here all my life, I work here, breath here, sleep here... And don't get me wrong, I love Amsterdam. But sometimes I have this very strange feeling that I'm not ment to be here. No, let me rephrase that, that I'm not ment to stay here, grow old here. And lately this feeling has been taken over. 
I daydream about waking up in my apartment, (sleep)walk to the window and see the Seine sparkle in the early sunlight. I quickly get dressed in a simple black jacket, tee and jeans and go to the nearest kiosk to get the latest issue of the French Vogue. And, while I smile to my nextdoor neighbor and mumble a tiny 'bonjour', I walk straight towards my favorite cafe. A few rays of sun gently caress my face, as I sit down on the terrace. I order a 'grande latte' and a 'pain au chocolat' and sigh. I soak up everything around me. I watch the little streets, the cars, the effortlessly dressed people, the buildings, the Eiffel Tower. Thinking about what I will do tomorrow. Go for a stroll in Jardin du Luxembourg? Go shopping at YSL and Colette? Get some macaroons at Laduree? Or just stay in and eat croissants?

And than I'm back in my room in Amsterdam. With a big sigh, I look at these pictures from previous trips to Paris. But than I smile. Because I know, if I keep dreaming about this, if I really want this, it will happen someday. Home is not where you happen to be born or where you are living now, home is where the heart is.


  1. Super leuk geschreven!

    Xoxo Whitney

  2. Wow, this is so beautiful! Amazing post!!

  3. Ah wat mooi geschreven! Ik snap wel 'n beetje wat je bedoeld! De eerste keer dat ik in Rome kwam had ik het gevoel alsof ik 'thuiskwam'.

  4. Wow. Echt wow. Ik kreeg kriebels in mn buik van je stukje. Ik snap wel een beetje hoe je je voelt, ik wil hier ook echt niet blijven en naar Londen of Parijs gaan als ik mn studie hier af heb. Ik heb het gevoel dat er niks hier is. Voor mij in ieder geval.
    Echt heel mooi en leuk geschreven, Nikita! Zullen we samen weggaan hier? Haha.

  5. ladurée! <3<3

    ps. doe je al mee met mijn give-away?

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  7. City of love, heel leuk geschreven girl!
    xo kimberley | http://www.kimberleyschouten.com

  8. Aaah, mooi geschreven meid! I know that feeling, de wereld is te groot om maar op 1 plek te blijven.
    Ik krijg ook altijd kriebes in mn buik van Parijs! Heerlijke stad is het! Make your dreams come true girl!

  9. mooi hoor! ik hoop voor je dat je trouw blijft aan jezelf, je hart volgt en zo heel gelukkig wordt!

  10. I'm so insanely jealous! I love Paris and I want to go SOOO bad!! These photos are so amazing. I bet Laduree macarons are just the best. Can't wait until the day I can actually eat one!

    Love & Cake,

  11. gorgeous pictures!


  12. Leuke foto's van Paris! Bedankt voor je reactie :)

    X http://www.mydiaryofstyle.com/

  13. Je kent me en daarom reageer in anoniem, maar wilde je toch even zeggen dat dit echt heel erg mooi en goed geschreven is. Je hebt hier echt talent voor en ik hoop dat je alles bereikt wat je wil bereiken